Sometimes Life is Strange and Bizarre

I can't believe I haven't posted in 10 days! But let me just say life as a Bio major has gotten hectic!!! Organic Chemistry is the bane of my existence these days. I love medicine and I miss being a Student Athletic Trainer like I was in high school...but this whole undergraduate study program is so boring to me!! I could care less what a chain of 11 carbons is called. Anyway on to the main subject of this blog.

Earlier today I found myself sitting in my History class. Now, history really isn't my subject I'm terrible with names and dates. But today, my professor was lecturing on the Enlightenment period. Now, a little background, I am a "cradle Catholic." However my entire life I have struggled with the whole blind faith thing. And I think the new testament of the Bible is a lot of exaggeration. But I digress. My professor today introduced this term I had never heard: Deism. This religion that basically thinks that God is there, but he doesn't intervene, and he gave humans the abilities to come up with morals and such by using the God given skill of logic and reason. This idea that God created the universe and then let it run itself makes so much sense to me!

Ever since I was a young child (like 4 years old) I have had this image of what I thought God's place in the universe is and I have no idea where I got it from, but man it's scarily similar to this Diest thought. To think that thoughts I have had practically my whole life are actually those of a legit religious view is pretty impressive to me. I always felt ashamed in a way to explain these thoughts to anyone because they are dramatically different than those of Catholic thought. I also felt that I was a terrible person for not being able to have faith in anything. Maybe that still makes me the biggest skeptic in the world. But I am going to research the history of Deism more and learn some more of the core beliefs and then we will see how this revelation is going to be incorporated into my life. Maybe at 19 1/2 I have finally found something that makes sense spiritually and maybe not. We'll see.

Peace and happy thoughts.